A lifetime ago, I came upon the most horrible road accident. It was late at night on a Wyoming two lane highway. An elk and car met at speed. I placed a family of four carefully at the road side applying tourniquets and pressure as I could, in near total darkness. One by one the three that were still breathing began to die, first the mother, the daughter and finally the little boy. At 20, I wasn't unfamiliar with death, but never had I seen it happen. In that darkness, a luminous mist had formed and hung over the scene. Then one by one a lumenous something left the three bodies I observed dying rose to join the larger snippet of mist. The now smaller and brighter lumenescance, and then it was gone. I was and am still an empiricist, this had to be the joining of these peoples' souls. A lifespan of 9 years, is what you have. How can you miss what will never be. Take comfort.