Jess,
You know...it's kind of hard for me to say this, but even though I'm an athiest, my family is Catholic, so a part of me still clings to the idea of a God. I've only used that part of me to pray for my grandmother, but now I'm finding myself turning to prayer one more time for you and Allan. It makes me so sad to hear about him and his declining health, and the toll it must be taking on you personally. Just remember, Jess, don't give up. There's always a chance for something miraculous to happen. Practically everyone here is pulling for you both. That has to count for something ^_^
He knows you love him deeply, Jess, and though I haven't been here very long, I can tell by the things he writes and his outlook on life that you're what he fights and lives for. If there's one thing I truly believe exists in this world, it's pure love. You both are truly lucky to have found that in one another.
I wish you and Allan the best with all my heart, and I'm hoping/praying hard for him.