Peanut2008
New member
Hello everyone,
I went to see Dr Maidman in order to get a letter for the IVF specialist b/c he is worried that the hormones needed to do the IVF would make me have Pulmonary Edema again...The hormones make women retain water and b\c i have had Pulmonary Edema 2 times in my life, have been in a coma, have Epilepsy and also Kidney Stones, the IVF doctor refuses to touch me unless Dr Maidman gives the go ahead...I honestly thought that this would be easy, that he would just give me the letter and i would be making an appointment to start the IVF by tomorrow....Boy was i wrong...it turn out the My Dr refuses to give me such a letter claiming that he will not give me the go ahead unless i do a bunch of tests which i already did when i was pregnant with Peanut...As u all can imagine i was crushed...He told me that when i was pregnant his job was to try to keep me and my baby alive but now that I not pregnant and am trying to do something that may cause me to loose my life, his job is to make sure that in trying to get pregnant i wont die in the process,,,which turns out is the same fear the IVF doctor has.... I dont know what to do.....They tell me that with IVF i would have mutiple births b/c i am fertile which would put added stress on my body...I dont want to be selfish i have my daughter and i want to be around to see her grow up but i want a baby...I still wake up in the morning and think that i am still pregnant that everything else was just a very long and horrible nightmare but when i wake up i see that i am empty...my peanut is nt here...my peanut is gone and now i am being told that i may not be able to have another baby....I dont know what to do...I understand the fears, these are all fears that i have also but i feel that i can do this and they tell me that unless the test say i can then no one can touch me and i cant get pregnant the regular way b/c the smae thing may happen again...I would have to gamble and unfotunatly i have lost in the past when i have gambled so i dont want to go through this again...i dont want to die but i need this baby b/c i am not living right now b/c i am sooooo empty..
Peanut2008
I went to see Dr Maidman in order to get a letter for the IVF specialist b/c he is worried that the hormones needed to do the IVF would make me have Pulmonary Edema again...The hormones make women retain water and b\c i have had Pulmonary Edema 2 times in my life, have been in a coma, have Epilepsy and also Kidney Stones, the IVF doctor refuses to touch me unless Dr Maidman gives the go ahead...I honestly thought that this would be easy, that he would just give me the letter and i would be making an appointment to start the IVF by tomorrow....Boy was i wrong...it turn out the My Dr refuses to give me such a letter claiming that he will not give me the go ahead unless i do a bunch of tests which i already did when i was pregnant with Peanut...As u all can imagine i was crushed...He told me that when i was pregnant his job was to try to keep me and my baby alive but now that I not pregnant and am trying to do something that may cause me to loose my life, his job is to make sure that in trying to get pregnant i wont die in the process,,,which turns out is the same fear the IVF doctor has.... I dont know what to do.....They tell me that with IVF i would have mutiple births b/c i am fertile which would put added stress on my body...I dont want to be selfish i have my daughter and i want to be around to see her grow up but i want a baby...I still wake up in the morning and think that i am still pregnant that everything else was just a very long and horrible nightmare but when i wake up i see that i am empty...my peanut is nt here...my peanut is gone and now i am being told that i may not be able to have another baby....I dont know what to do...I understand the fears, these are all fears that i have also but i feel that i can do this and they tell me that unless the test say i can then no one can touch me and i cant get pregnant the regular way b/c the smae thing may happen again...I would have to gamble and unfotunatly i have lost in the past when i have gambled so i dont want to go through this again...i dont want to die but i need this baby b/c i am not living right now b/c i am sooooo empty..
Peanut2008