"what is the point of life, especially for us? we feel so much pain to live just to feel more pain. honestly if i knew i was goin to heaven i would kill myself now. what does everyone else think on this subject? "
Hello cfboy - I also spent the last few minutes reading through the thread and felt I needed to write something as well. I included your comment above for myself so that I can stick to the topic on hand.
TO ALL;
My background/ Disclaimer to my comments and beliefs below:
I am 29 w/ CF and I have two older bros. also w/CF (31 and 34). I am Christian, and I believe there is a heaven and that I will someday be there because I believe in Christ's love for us and his sacrfice to save us from our sins... save us from ourselves (in a way).
I don't know what is the point to life. I can't answer that definitively. We are all given our time of grace here on earth. Our time is determined by God. <i>We</i> do not know what is best for us. Your struggles may seem to be never ending. You have a heavy cross to bear. All of this (CF, cancer, pain, divorce, etc.), I believe, is the result of sin in the world (hence our desires to be in heaven).
I do believe we are here to be living examples of Christ's love for us. That is one point to life. We are here to tell others of God's love. Everything else (good times, happiness, friends, family, satisfaction in work, basketball, education, sunshine, laughter, peace, warm socks, comfort, food) comes as blessings from God. Life is not sunshine and smiles. If it was, there wouldn't be the need for a heaven. <u>Praise the Lord that there is a heaven because this is really hard</u>.
CF is a chronic illness (I know, duh.), and with it comes an emotional struggle that most (if not all) of us carry. We (my brothers and I) are adults (known about our CF our whole lives) and still struggle with the emotional ramifications of this disease. It does suck. It never gets easier. We just become used to it. We never became "happy" that we have it. We just focus on the few positives that comes with the disease (see previous posters- the mom with the 10 mo. old and the others stating that trials highlight and make the good things even better, that we are used as tools to help others along the same CF road).
CF doesn't provide a positive outlook on life, but there are positive things in life. A person just needs to look beyond their pain and outside of themselves, a bit, to notice them. God allows pain in our lives, but He also gives comfort/ good things. They just may be subtle at times. If you seriously see nothing that gives you comfort in this life, it may be helpful to seek professional help. You may need someone trained in this to have as an outlet to talk -who can coach you through these darker times. I pray that, by this time, you are feeling a bit better.
...And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus... Philippians 4:7
Ps: 119:50 My comfort in my suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life.
