Hey I can definitely relate to some degree. I didn't really take my disease seriously as a child, nor did my mom. It was just something i had, and it didn't really effect me much. Even after reading about it through high school, it still didn't click...and i just put it in the back of my mind.
I did what ever other teenager does...I smoked, did drugs, drank etc...and i don't regret any of it for a moment. I'm lucky that i came out of it ok though, and i am well now (24). I might have regreted a bit more though if i had gotten really sick. However, that was my choice, and this is my life.
A lot of people were kinda upset on here because while you are smoking (not just you, but only one in the publics eye), there were people here dying...on breathing machines....wishing they could breath half as well as any normal person could. I think that is the way that cf is portrayed, and while it is true, that is not all of us. There are some of us that smoke, there are some of us that party....and there are some of us that say **** you...and ignore it. I kinda respected the fact that you brought a realistic twist to the thing called cf...because not one person, patient is the same
anyways, a bit of a ramble...but don't worry, you were just being you...