Hi Peanut,
To start off with I cannot imagine what you are even facing right now. I pray for you and I pray for wisdom and clarity for you.
There are a couple of websites that might help you, some aren't CF related but my gosh, they are full of strength and insight.
They are cfhusband.blogspot.com (wife has CF has premie baby)
then there is thestanfieldjourney.blogspot.com (off of that one, click on Mary Grace Summons and also on Miller Grace).
I found these websites to be AMAZING. And I thought of you when I saw them, you might find inspriation there.
Good luck with all that you are facing. You know God has a plan for you and God has a plan for your baby. I encourage you to at least consider facing this challenge head on. God knew your baby before He created him and he knew your baby would have CF, he still chose you to be the mom. That gives me a lot of peace in my own life, some times when I think of challenges that I face, I remember God has a hand on everything I do and everything I am. I just have to remember who is greater than me, that gives me so much comfort. If you are not religious, just try praying and lifting your problems to God. He knows what you are facing, He knows WHY you are facing this, and he knows the reasons for all of this.
If there is anything I can do for you, please let me know.
CF is just a PART of my life, it doesn't contol my life.
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Kelli
30 female, CF'er
Mrs. Ohio Pageant contestant
Model
Co-owner (with my husband) of a multi-million dollar business
Volunteer with over 1800 hours at a women's shelter
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